Wednesday, April 29, 2009

handphone stealers

fine. ok. fault us for being careless to leave our handphone around or to accidently drop it out of our pockets/bags without knowing.

whatever.

but the point is, don't you even know it's evil to steal handphones?
can't afford then don't own one.
why do you need to be so bloody desperate to take other people's things?

handphone stealers should all just rot in hell.
BURN!

How I Met Your Mother -- CSI: Style

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

broke as broke can be

i need to work on severe cost-cutting measures.
times are bad.
and my purse strings are in need of alot of pulling & tugging.
if my social life is seemingly non-existent, pls understand why - i really need to save money.
shall attempt to be cheapo - it's the way to go from now.
no more spending!
save save save!

Monday, April 27, 2009

Prayer of St. Francis

Lord make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred let me sow love.
Where there is injury, pardon.
Where there is doubt, faith.
Where there is despair, hope.
Where there is darkness, light.
And where there is sadness, joy.

O divine master grant that I may
not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
To be loved as to love
For it is in giving that we receive-
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned.
And it's in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Amen

Thursday, April 23, 2009

bills

just when i thought that getting slapped with a $500 over credit card bill was bad,
try $785 now.
omg.

i'm dead.

i desperately need to stop spending,
and stop volunteering to pay first.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

talk abt mood swings

great.
now for no rhyme or reason dad's pissed at me.
i really don't know what the world is coming to.
why is everyone so freakin' hard to please.

already 24 and still being controlled.
where's the sense in that?
seriously?

at times like this, i wish i had my own place of solitude and refuge.
solitude doesn't seem so bad now.
at least i'll have peace by myself.
without having to watch my back all the time in case someone decides to get pissed off at me.
just get off my back. seriously.

talk about randomness.

fed up is what best describes my current situation now.

trying to see the sense in everything

whats the bloody point of salvaging things now?
especially after all that has been said and done.
airing dirty linen for the world to see and talk about.
is it just seeking attention or what is it?
i really don't get it.

i remember telling you before, in a relationship, it takes 2 hands to clap.
n just last nite you tell me about it being a one way street.
who ever treated this as a one way street?
who?

i get that you need a longer time to cool off and so i let you.
how am i to know how long you need?
even after the so-called cooling off, you still could be so antagonistic towards me.
is that all i'm worth?
you jus being pissed off at me?

when was the last time i picked on ur shortcomings?
when was the last time i told you things i don't like about u, the way you handle things, the way you are or the way you drive?
when did i have expectations of you that i told to in ur face?
when did i have expectations and not say it?
when did i not give you credit?
when did i not tell you that i appreciate you taking the trouble to send me home after all the Clubbing?
when did i not tell you i appreciate the things you do?
when when when?

and now, i get told off one issue at a time.
exploded in my face.
just based on 1 issue. which is a small matter to begin with.
all we needed was to resolve it. to come to a common understanding.
but you chose to stay angry. you chose to be disappointed.
you could have talked to Grace, Shiqin, ask them for ways to help the situation.
but you chose not to.
fine, maybe you think they are MY sounding boards, therefore you feel it's not right for you to talk to them.
as much as Grace is my cousin, my best friend. she's your friend too.
i have no doubt that she will be objective thru it all. if only you just tried.

if it was all so important to you, why did you have to leave it all till now.
after saying all those hurtful stuff.
being so antagonistic and sacarstic.

for the record, you're not the only person hurt.
you're not the only person feeling shitty.
you're not the only victim here.

everytime we had issues, when did i post stuff about you on MSN or FB?
when?
by your last post last night and deleting/removing all our photos n such.
isn't it all clear enough?
i texted to ask if you still wanted the relationship.
guess what, you didn't reply.
how do you think you made me felt?

happy or sad, good times or bad, everything you announce to the whole world.
now even by you not eating, your whole family knows whats going on.
real smart move.
as if it's not bad enough that your whole FB & MSN contacts are probably thinking i'm such a bitch.
now your family too.
thanks alot. really.

i hated to think that our r'ship has an expiration date of 6 months like all your previous ones, because i held to my heart, the statement you made about me being different.
maybe you were just saying it.

if you know me well enough, you'd know how i handle things.
you'd know i'd be ok if you just talk nicely.
why must there be attitude problems for the sake of it?
we're all adults here.
why is there a need to make such a negative point?

admittedly, yes i have a lot of committments, yes i have a lot of friends whom i am not willing to let go off. it's not the first day you know me.
isn't r'ships about mutual acceptance?
what good is a r'ship if both parties are just going to keep pin-pointing faults and short-comings?
would you rather a girlfriend who has an exceptionally good social life, who includes you occassionally?
or would you rather a girlfriend who has the usual bunch of friends in her life and spends time with her family?

i know you don't like it that i don't put your name up here.
and yes, my closer friends would know who i'm talking about.
but still i choose not to put names up here.
because i'm very sure, years from now, i'll know who i'm talking about.

ya, it's good while it lasted.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Mayonnaise Jar & Two Beers

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 Beers. A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.

When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.


The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full..
They agreed it was..


The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full.
The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'


The professor then produced two Beers from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand.

The students laughed.. 'Now,' said the professor as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things---your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.
The sand is everything else---the small stuff.
'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Spend time with your children.

Spend time with your parents.
Visit with grandparents.

Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your spouse out to dinner.
Play another 18.
There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter.

Set your priorities.
The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the Beer represented.

The professor smiled and said, 'I'm glad you asked.' The Beer just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of Beers with a friend.

need for inspiration

'Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.'A sharp tongue can cut your own throat.

If you want your dreams to come true, you mustn't oversleep.

Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important.

The best vitamin for making friends..... B1.

The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts.
The heaviest thing you can carry is a grudge..

One thing you can give and still keep...is your word.

You lie the loudest when you lie to yourself.If you lack the courage to start, you have already finished.One thing you can't recycle is wasted time.

Ideas won't work unless 'you' do.

Your mind is like a parachute...it functions only when open.

The 10 commandments are not a multiple choice.

The pursuit of happiness is the chase of a lifetime! It is never too late to become what you might have been.

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right.

Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason.
If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands.
If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back.
Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away.
Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

does it really matter?

first of all, CONGRATULATIONS to Steph & Michelle on their baptism last Sunday!
i'm really proud of the both of you for going thru the RCIA. it is a trying journey of faith indeed, and i'm glad you both made it thru...
Thank God.

so all the office chatter yesterday about their baptism made me think, and it also stirred my other cradle catholic colleague to ask me random questions throughout the afternoon.
i think his intention was to test my knowledge of the catholic faith.
to be honest, i know nuts about it.
i know nuts about dates of obligation and important church information.
i.e. when was the vatican II established? what was the significance of the vatican II?
when is ascension? when is ash wednesday?

ya ok, big deal i don't know the answers to the above.
big deal that i'm a bad Catholic.
so what?
does that change my faith in God?

religion is just superficial practices.
practices to show people what we're all about.
what's the point?
you do it with unhappy hearts, where's the sense in that?

at the end of the day, to me, it's all about the heart.
it's all about the psychology behind the things we do/say.

everything else is symbolic.

so really, does it really matter?